Wednesday 24 September 2008

Lossing Faith

Lately, because of all that has happened this summer, I've been so down and found myself asking whether prayer does really work and whether God does indeed hears and answers.
I know he does, but you know those times when things happen to make you ask quesitons and question your belief.

I have resigned myself to the knowledge that I am 35 and after trying for 4 and a half years, with 2 failed IVF cycle and 3 cycles of Clomid, I am still not pregnant.
I have confessed the word, held on to it, smiled through the pain, attended prayer sessions, seminars, you name it, and still nothing.

So it is no surprise that I don't have much faith anymore or hope for it to happen, I have just kind of resigned myself to thinking, "whatever will be" "will be".

Then God lead me to some wonderful blogs and I have been so encouraged by the many entries, my faith was stirred up again. A good friend also encouraged me to continue to hold on to the hope I have and to continue to trust throught the waiting season.

I repented and asked God for forgiveness and for the strenght to trust him through it all.
Though it is hard, this I know "he is faithful who has promised and will bring it to pass"

7 comments:

Jenileigh said...

Lifting you up in prayer. BIG HUGS!

Alicia said...

I'm sorry to hear that you had a rough summer and also all the efforts and prayers that apeared to go un answered by God. Thats a lot to go through. I will be praying for you. Trust that He is good and He loves you very much. I know what you mean about "smiling through the pain". Keep the baby hopes alive, don't give up!

Jennifer A. said...

For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.

Habakkuk 2:3 (KJV)

*smiles*

Galatians 2:20 said...

Keep the baby hopes alive! I'm sorry to hear about all your trials this past summer. I'm praying for you.

Alicia said...

I can totaly relate! And I too am glad that the Lord lead me to some encouraging blogs. I'll be praying for you.

chichi said...

God is always on the JOB-ps 121; he never sleeps.

let him strengthn your faith. he is a God of miracles.

Jenileigh said...

Hello. I would love to see you posting again. Thank-you for stopping by my page the other day. Hugs my friend. You are still in my prayers.

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