Saturday 6 March 2010

Still Waiting

My emotions were sky high during my last flow. I felt like this year is progressing so quickly with no sign of me being pregnant. I have been praying more along this line and specifically asking God to make me pregnant again soon.

Sometimes I wonder it this is the right way to pray. I've tried all forms of praying and believing and just wonder what the problem is. I'll like to try another IVF but finances are limited. I know deep down that God will do it, but it's a question of when.

My flows are getting better and are more regular than they've been for years. I am positive that God will hear and answer, but when Lord?
My husband, bless him has been encouraging saying we should just enjoy our lives without kids, that he won't love me any less, that is not the point, I just want God's word to be fulfilled in our home.

I have so many things I want to do with our kids, I want to stay at home and bake, cook and clean, I want to run around in the garden with then.
I want to go for long walks with my baby in the pram and wave at other mums.
I want to take time off work and just enjoy being a mum.
I will love every moment of motherhood I promise,
I will welcome the sleepless nights, the endless cries, and whatever else comes with being a mum, but until then, Lord, I am still waiting.

Today the 12 April brings back memories of this post written on the 6 March 2010.

Today I am a mum of 2 young girls.
Today, I have  enjoyed all of the things I wanted to do as mum 6 years ago.
I run around the garden with my two girls.
I bake with them,
I did go for long walks on with my baby and wave at other mums
I took over 2 years off work to be a mum and enjoyed every minute of that
I had lots of sleepless nights and didn't complain.

Today I am no longer waiting.

Your story may still be one of waiting, but tomorrow your story may change.
Your captivity may turn to your
Your day of motherhood will come
Till then
Wait, in joy, abound in hope, be still.


2 comments:

Remi, United Kingdom said...

...and He is faithful, and a good father, who loves to give beautiful gifts to us, such as Children. He hears you before you utter a sound. Keep holding on to you faith and thank Him for He has answered. He will most definately manifest your heart's desires for you.

So many things I am waiting for too... I have cried, prayed and done all the finger pointing (laughing at self now!) to God. But all in all He is still a good father, regardless the fact that I have not seen the promises or the manifested prayers. But it does not stop me from believing that it is coming. Now i just thank Him for they are all on their way and ask Him to help me live everyday being ready to receive the gifts.

I will keep you in prayers... But don't forget... God is good and He will come through for you according to His word, will and purpose for your life.

Much Love x

Dawn said...

You will in time ok?
Just keep trusting God and he will do it.

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